It’s crazy to think about how fast two people can come to know each other. One second you are complete strangers, something happens that causes you to cross paths with them, and then if you’re lucky, a spark ignites.
The question is whether or not that spark will last. Will you become close? Will you laugh with this person? Share your dreams and secrets with this person? Hug them just because you can? Will this relationship last? Or will be it short-lived?
For me, all of my relationships have been short-lived. I am currently undergoing another ending of one. The heart break that comes with it is painful, sad, confusing, and unfortunately, normal. The process is one that I am used to… listen to all of my sad country songs, journal a lot, go to a couple weekly masses to be with God to pray and question why, shed some tears….
However, while I have done all of the previously listed things during this recovery process, something is different this time. While I am sad, I know I will be okay. While I will miss the little texts that made me smile after class, I know that I deserve more. While I want to talk to this person right now and figure out what happened, I know that will only make things harder. Ultimately, I know I will be okay.
I know this because God has a plan for me… because I have amazing friends and family that love me and are there for me… because I have to experience these road bumps to learn and grow from them… because I am a warrior.
That last reason might have thrown you off a little bit, but it is relevant because yesterday, my Pandora radio station played “Warrior” by Demi Lovato. This is a song that one of my best friends and I always used to tell each other to listen to when we would experience heartache. I was so thankful that it came on because it helped me realize that I am a strong and independent woman that is hurt right now, but capable of moving forward. Here are the lyrics that really speak to me:
All the pain and the truth
I wear like a battle wound
So ashamed, so confused
I was broken and bruised
Now I’m a warrior
Now I’ve got thicker skin
I’m a warrior
I’m stronger than I’ve ever been
And my armor, is made of steel, you can’t get in
I’m a warrior
And you can never hurt me again
Crazy how we went from strangers to confidants so quickly, but it’s even crazier how fast we went back to where we started. I wouldn’t take back any of it, but will keep myself more guarded from now on.
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